whuargh. My cam is with Annas again. SO NO PICTURES.

Today was the first day of orientation! *cheers* As usual there's so many things to say. Dee, Isk and I are in charge of NUKERO UNO. The most Pepero group ar. Which is like. THE BEST. haha. The class did ok on the first day. They were so cute. HAHA. They were, really.

It's unfair la. Seriously unfair. Their batch has like so many hot guys and girls! SO MANY LAH.

haha. I am incoherent I know. COS I AM STILL HURT FOR YOUR INFOMATION.

Still so fucking hurt.

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syaf_11:11 PM (0) comments

I love my SDN clubbers! They made my day. They kept telling me jokes like...

My dick's so big, it has its own flag.
My dick's so big, it has its own postal code.

and then we came up with a few of our own, Singaporean style.

Your mader's so fat, she's fatter than my mader!
Your mader's so fat, she needs to exercise ah.
Your mader's so fat, she cannot eat fried foods.
Your mader's so fat, she can wear xxxl!
Your mader's so fat, she cannnot wear S.
Your mader's so fat, she must wear uZap.

LMAO.

Serious.

This year's orientation preparations aren't going as smoothly as we had hoped it would. But whatever you know! We've waited forever for tomorrow to happen and nothing's gonna spoil it for us.

STELLA, CHRISTINE AND FAITH. AHAHAHAHHAHA. I HOPE YOU ALL ARE PRETTY. GOT GUYS INTERESTED IN YOU. HAHAHAHHA THEN THE PRETTIEST ONE, NO ONE WANT TO ASK FOR NUMBER AHH.

All I wanna do is ctrl + select bits of my memory and delete it. I'm trying my hardest to forget. I got a haircut while at it. Maybe I'm just a perv but I love haircuts partly cos I like the way the hairdressers touch me. Be it man or woman or gay. It's just.. so nice. *shrugs* It's a bonus of course if the haircut turns out good. I think mine did. Jole sed it looked sexy. WHOA. Sorry I had to mention that cos ya. IT CAME FROM JOLE. haha.

Big day tomorrow with BIG T-SHIRT! Good night.

DEE, I LOVE YOU TOO. (: THANK YOU.
syaf_10:56 PM (1) comments

Tomorrow will be a better day. Please God, let it be a better one. For today is the saddest I have ever been.
syaf_10:32 PM (0) comments

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

So Tell me your secrets
Ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Chasing our tails
Heads only science apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh, take me back to the start

-The Scientist, Coldplay

Thanks to Hazwan who got me to listen to Coldplay again after a long while. haha.

I don't want to give up. I don't want to let it go. I don't want to break my promise even before I fulfil it. One more chance, please.
syaf_7:21 AM (0) comments

I spent the day at the lib with Dee today. I just had to go out. haha. We looked for books for my mother and found a book on SHIT. Eh, of course I didnt borrow THAT. The corniness is enough to kill. Then sat down to read some comics and finally browsed through books on cookery. haha. I was looking for a book on simple recipes. Couldnt find one.

We had lunner and laughed a lot. :D

We were on the train right and I was sms-ing while observing this old chinese lady standing near the glass panel. She wasn't leaning on it and was doing a good job keeping balance. Then a younger lady in mini skirt and heels walked over to her side, obviously wanting to lean against the glass panel but the old lady won't let her. Looking dejected the young lady lamely stood near the other glass panel (cos someone else was already there) trying not to look paiseh. A few stations later, a man walked in and wanted to do the same but he managed to grab the spot cos the old lady wasnt fast enough? haha. Guess she was upset and moved away from the man. The man on the other hand looked at her up and down with this "what's up with you man" look. The old lady reached her station and as she was walking out, she side-stepped to avoid touching a woman who was walking in.

I say she seriously doesn't like people and germs and I don't think it's by choice either.
syaf_8:19 PM (0) comments

Please ROLLOVER.

Today, I reached school at ard 10am in the morning. We had an OGL briefing before we painted the banners which we only started doing at 1pm? I don't know. The design the school gave us needed a lot of discussion but the guys did a good job on it. Liying, Dee and I handled the designing of the SDN banner quite well I think. Haha. Even though we cheated a bit. But it turned out nice and that's all that matters. So nice, it looks as if it's printed. Of course we have those meticulous people to thank like SHAO HONG, EFFIE AND SITI. *shakes head

haha but you guys did well la! *pats your backs

I love SDN WOO! I've always been semangat when it comes to these things in case you don't know. HA. But it depends, really. It's fun now cos I LOVE the people I hang out with. It's the people that's important. If you can't get along with them, then you won't be happy now would you? nyahahah

YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE I THINK? I THINK THE GUYS IN OUR CLUB ARE CUTE. :B BUT PLEASE. I'M NOT GATAL. THEY'RE LIKE MY BROTHERS. :) I'm just happy to be working with them. They're good company. So are the girls la of course. AND IF I WERE TO SAY THE GUYS ARE CUTE, THE GIRLS ARE WAY CUTER. COS I'M ONE OF THEM LA THANK YOU VERY MUCH. *yeah! hi5^s everybody

Today was productive, I hope the guys managed to finish the NYP banner [i left before the thing was over]. No choice ar. DO OR DIE situation. SHOULD HAVE TOLD US EARLIER RIGHT? BASTARDS. So anyway, I'll be an OGL in like less than a week!! I'm so excited cos DEE & I ARE GONNA LIKE HAVE THE BEST CLASS. HO HO MERRY CHRISTMAS LO. I just hope they're sporty enough to win the games. nyaHAH. But I hope they're more sporting than anything else. :D

Thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. Patience with me please please. I'm trying really really REALLY hard. Please. My eternal appreciation and love, to you.
syaf_11:11 PM (0) comments

The barbeque was FUN. WOO. BUT I DIDN'T EAT ANY CHICKEN. IT'S OK IMAHNICEGIRHHL. HAHA. the chalet was held at ARANDA COOUNTRY CLUB. wah so nice sia. so biiiig. so nice. so biiiig.

I don't know what's with us always hanging out at the pit area. Maybe it's cos of Leong Wei, holding the tongs. SO HOTT. And he's a funny guy. LOVELY. HAHA. I'm so damn sad i hafta part ways with my classmates cos I think they're like the best class anyone can ever ask for ah. They're so loving. I couldnt have asked for a better class, seriously.

The cheese hotdogs were a hit and since we were at the pit, we had the upperhand. LOL. Ape lagi, Mission BANCHEESEDOG ah! ahahahhaha. Ya. Edmund, aren't you lucky you were standing with us? I think he found it quite funny cos i've nvr heard him laugh like that. LOL.

"this one not So Long, this one is fish. We never cook So Long, we cook fish."

"...later the fire "waaargh!""

"no no the fire cannot talk."

WAH I miss Leong oredi. THANK YOUR LUCKY STARS IF YOU HAVE HIM AS A CLASSMATE AND THANK THE WHOLE SOLAR SYSTEM IF HE BECOMES YOUR BOYFRIEND. I'm sad i didn't appreciate him more. :( Oh well, corridors, pon corridors la.

Becca's parents are like supre nice and friendly. Helped us with the food and bbq-ing. If not for them, we'll all be sick by now ah.

We parted after marshmellows! Took the taxi. And I must say, what fantastic service!! I WAS BACK HOME IN LESS THAN 30 MINS!! FROM THE OTHER SIDE OF SG!! Sorry. I'm still amazed. haha. And the driver was nice too. What a bonus! Should have given him a GEMS card.

The night is almost done and yea false alarm, really thought my modem f-ed up again. That was this morning. Now it's fine. :D
syaf_1:00 AM (0) comments

POWER. I'm SO glad I went.

So the initial plan was to meet up with Nadia and catch Gerhana Ska Cinta and go home I suppose. But in the end, we stayed for The Suns' second set which was awesome to the core by the way. Fazli and Zu joined us. Good company I'll say.
Wished Dee was there. takpe la. Baybeats maseh ade.

I loved loved loooovvvvvved The Suns' show!! It was funnnnnnnn. If only it was Franz. i mean, I din get to do that then. WHUARGH. LOVED THE CROWD. FANTASTIC LAH YOU ALL. I got sweaty and disgusting but it was worth iiiitttt. nak laggiiiii.

I'm soooo petty i knowwww. but when you're pissed, you're pissed even after reasoning with yourself. and im pissed now. Thanks Is. You're sweet. ahhahhahaha si Pai ni. Im chatting with him. AHAHAHHA. funny sia. call me loser never skank. I got lor. Walaupon burok. HAHA.

ok. dah lah. im going off now. tata!
syaf_11:59 PM (0) comments

yes. I miss Fauzy. Haven't seen him for about a week. :( I'm not being melo. I JUST MISS HIM.

There's this neverending battle with myself. It's tiring. I get so pissed and depressed over nothing. Aah. Stop it can annot. Please bother someone else la. PENAT TAU AKU LAYAN KAU. I'm not smiling much. I'm not laughing much; doesn't help Dee's at Bangkok now. I MISS THAT GIRL. I hope she's having fun & shopping a lot. haha.

i miss you i miss you i miss you.

I watched Dorm with Dee the other day. Please don't waste your money on it. It's a story about friendship. Not scary hantus. So we concluded that ghost movies which come out during the non-season, are bad ghost movies. ahahaha. oh shit. my english is shit.

Ok bye. I want my mom to teach me how to make roti kirai. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. That's why. (:

and it's raining now, how lovely.
syaf_2:23 PM (0) comments

I know I'm a lost cause. Let me go if you don't want me to drag you down la. I know I'm not a saint. If you don't believe in me then just let me be. I'm not forcing anyone to accept me. If you can't, then don't. You're hurting me inside out. My head's so messed up I almost can't take it anymore.

Don't worry, it's the music.
syaf_10:51 AM (1) comments

*pats head* I'm proud of myself for going through the whole 3-day camp. :D Especially when I almost skipped today's session. The camp was unexpectedly fun. I believe the people made it so. Wonderful wonderful club I'm so proud to be in. *cheers*

Finally it's the hols! only till next week cos they want us back to discuss the orientation FOR THE FRESHIES! yay yay. I can't believe I'm excited that my hols are burned AGAIN. :D siao ahh.

Fauzy and I are 3 mths today. SAYANG AWAK SANGAT SANGAT. And he can finally go online. YAY. :B

Dee, take care when you're at Thailand k. I'll pray fer your safety. *pats dee's head*

Everything I'm saying
Is coming out all wrong
Please bear with me
I've got so much to say
Let me explain
Myself to you

Forgive me, forgive me not.

I'm sorry for what it's worth
I know I'm wrong
Cant you see, I'm still me?
Are you listening?

Nothing I can say will make this right
Just give it time
Why cant i spit it out
I need relief
Your sympathy

Forgive me, forgive me not.

I'm sorry for what it's worth
I know I'm wrong
Cant you see, I'm still me?
Are you listening?

I'm sorry for what it's worth
I know I'm wrong
Cant you see, I'm still me?
Are you listening?

It's temporary, anyway. There is nothing that I can say to you, to say to me.

-Finch, Apologetic Theory
syaf_10:10 PM (0) comments

Good English sounds weird to me.

oh wait, HAAAAIIII AIIINNNN!!! OF COURSE I REMEMBER YOU. I HAVE YOUR HANDPHONE NUMBER :D haha. HAVE A GOOD DAY!

YAY!! MY ASSESSMENT IS FINALLY FINALLY OVVVVEERRR!!! I am so happy yay yay. Now it's the holidays!! yay!! MERRY XMAS KORANG!!

Everything I expected to go well didn't and everything I expected to cock up didn't so I can say it didn't turn out like how I expected it to be. :D

I HAVE SOME GRAVE NEWS TO SHARE. I AM VERY UPSET. FINCH HAS BROKEN UP. I am sad. Can someone bake me F-shaped cookies please. Thank you. All the bands I like are gone save Thrice. But they are clever boys. I'm sure they won't disappoint fans like that. SCREW YOU NATE AND FRIENDDDDSSSS. :(

Ok anyway. I haven't finished talking bout school. Eugene liked my animation surprisingly. I know why. Cos 2D's not his thing. So what does he know right. Wendy lagi. Adobe Photoshop tak pass. But she's pretty. HAHA LOOK AT ME, TRYING TO BE NICE. :x They commented on my potty which was what I wanted but 50% was negative. So it's not all good yea. And I can't believe Eugene liked my Findmeat drawings. Thanks. He made my day, somewhat. Cos I don't think any other teacher would have given them a second look. That was nice of the man. I'm thankful everything went well and by God's grace, I'll pass it.

After the assessment, I headed back home with dee only to be locked out of the house yet again. We left our potties behind the gate and went back to sch for the ogl camp. I don't know why but it has never occured to me that it is an actual camp with free food and games (bunyi mcm party eh). I didn't know what to expect, really. They had an instructor and a philosophical one at that. Im paired up with this girl who calls me mummy cos we were told to take care of our buddy in the next 2 days. ahah ok. I shall be nice. The mummy thing needs getting used to though. My OG better not act cute and start calling me mummy too. Cos that's just sad. I wish I have pictures but i dont. my cam is with annas who is right now, at Pahang. ahah. The games we played today were actually fun. and tomoro it'll be a whole day of activities under the hot hot hot sun. THAT'S LOVELY, CHILDREN.

I'll be going to sleep now cos it's way past my bedtime and yours too, kiddies.

Fauzy is a cute boy. Sayang dier. :D
syaf_12:41 AM (1) comments

rollover rollover. captions inside. rollover.

Ramai jugak orang turon. Haha. You know, same clothes different faces. WHICH IS GOOD. BAGOS. AKU TAK KENAL SATU ORANG PON. (Y)

Haha. Hmm. Chances of those people reading this blog are slim but I apologize anyway for the dialogue boxes. Your socks are cool man and ya. ahah.

Fauzy's friend was funneh man. The bands put it effort, can see that. Very good. I hope they actually go places yea. All the best to you guys. Originials korang impressive. Power to the people. Reminded me that I have an untouched guitar at home. Alahai. Sorry. I'll be super free soon so nanti aku pelan-pelan kayoh la ok. Aku tetap mahukan sebuah Ibanez. ahah. Tak salah kan. Nak aje. Tak salah pe. Tsk.

Burger Ramly sedap dan mengenyangkan. Ekonomikal pulak tu. It makes a good dinner. I think I can last all the way till noon tomoro. Yessar.

Been some time since I last saw a show. So ya. Nanti free gile kan. We go ok. We as in sesape yang nak ikot aku dan kawan-kawan. Kawan-kawan di sini bermaksud my different personalities and I, myself. Aku bebual sorang kan numero uno. Haiz.

I'm sorry if my Malay is so mat. Alah. Crap. Lupe ape aku nak cakap.

Ah ok anyway, sorry for not going online these past few days. I don't trust myself to not singgung anyone with me in my current state. The project has taken its toll on me; I believe my shittycrapassmotherfuckingassholic face was a clue. I'm so sorry. Honest to God, I am sorry. Especially to you Dee cos it's been so long since I saw you (long to us is around 3 days). I hope I'm not being selfish or whatever. Abeh bleh kluar ngan Fauzy? HAHA. Die dah kene dah. I gave him shit as well. Actually, die slalu kene. Walaupon subtle. I should stop that now thinking bout it. So I'm being fair to everyone.

OK I REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS. REALLY REALLY.

I just want my assessment to be over and done with. One less thing to bring me down. There are still some things that are bothering me. :( But hmmmmmmmm that's another story.
syaf_9:49 PM (3) comments